September 1, 1994
After Communion
Title: Wanting a Deeper Union with Jesus
R. I want such deep union with Jesus. I want Him so much more. I saw the Mary statue and I know of their intense love for everyone. It makes me so sad to know this. It makes me sad to see her and see how blind this world is. I know what Jesus and Mary are telling me. After Communion, I am so close to Him. I am so close to the other side. My heart is torn between being here and experiencing this touch of the other side. I know it so clearly after Communion. These experiences are tender moments I treasure that brings tears to know the reality of heaven - I experience such closeness to Him.
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I love Him so much. I love God: the Father, Son and Holy Spirit and I intently love my beautiful mother. I want to be in deeper union with Mary and Jesus. Oh, my God, I deeply long to have a greater union with You forever!
I love You so intently. I want to be closely united to You, my God. I love You so much, only in my heart do I know, for words are hollow and do not express a drop of the intense love I have for You in my heart. I want to be so much closer, it hurts to want Him so deeply. Such longing for this great love and thirst in my soul. I long for You, oh Lord. My heart craves union with Him!
I seek a place of quiet intimacy with Him. I want to be with Him and Him alone, no one around. (Now I am in the Residence chapel by myself and my heart is quieted and full of such love, to be alone here with my beloved Jesus in my heart and in the Blessed Sacrament.)
After Communion I want to go into a quiet deep place, far off and be alone with Him. I want Him in a little space all by myself. I love Him so much. I am at such joy to be alone here with Him. I know His presence so much in the Blessed Sacrament. All I want to do is be alone with Him.
(Inner vision: I see with my eyes closed: Hearts with a door in it, one right after the other, going upward.)
Are we this door, Jesus, to lead hearts to heaven? Are we the instruments You are using to lead souls to the on-fire, burning love of Your most Sacred Heart, through Mary's heart? Clean my heart. Purify my soul. Make me forever holy to be pure and ever closer to You and Your most Sacred Heart. I love You so. The world stands still and Your love is so real to me. I see so clearly before me the life hereafter and the purpose of this earthly existence. You are the Almighty God and You lead us to our home, waiting for us in heaven. Anything that leads us from this, our goal, is detrimental to our journey. You are the Almighty God. I long for union ever closer to You and Mary and the saints and angels. I want to be ever closer to this home in heaven, in union with You.
(I see the ladder and souls ascending this ladder to Your Kingdom, that awaits us and I see a ladder that leads to a red, dark place.)
I feel such intense need for us to pray constantly, to do the Father's will. At Mass I beg for mercy from God to help all my brothers to get to their heavenly home. I feel the need to offer my life for my suffering brothers in purgatory. This life has meaning to me in loving God and drawing my brothers ever closer to this heavenly reward.
He said that we should love God as He loved us. He laid down His life for us.
This is the call of Mary: She calls us to the love of her Son and the love of our brothers!
Oh, my Jesus, I love You so much!
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