September 24, 1994
After Communion
Title: I See Jesus in His People
R. I felt as if I was so weak, so weak I just wanted to sit and I felt I couldn't move. I felt a pressing down on my whole body, as if my spirit could rise out of my body.
I want to be so close to Him. I long for union with Him. My life is a constant state of longing for Him more, wanting more, loving Him more.
He is talking to me a lot. I didn't want to wear my flowered dresses and He said I was His little flower and that is why He wants me to wear flowered dresses.
I see Jesus in so many beautiful people. I see Jesus in how they act. It is beautiful to see Him in them. I see them in their faces and hear them speaking from Him.
I see myself and Satan constantly working on my insecurities. I am weak and I feel discouraged. Last night Jesus said "it offends Me for you to focus on such nonsense, I love you so very much."
I realize the outpouring of His grace to me in the sacraments, in front of the tabernacle, in the Mass, in good works. He is constantly giving me so many graces. Who am I that He loves me so much? He is so good to me and I am so unworthy.
I realize now that all the graces He has given me to understand this and how He has gifted me to give me these writings. They are His gifts given to me to share with others. He loves us all so very much!
He gives us the grace to share in His Divine Life. Who are we that He outpours His grace to us? I feel His life within me. I am still sort of weak from communion. I feel like I do when I have seen a vision of Mary when she is illuminated.
Last Tuesday we said two rosaries at the prayer meeting. During the second rosary I started to get locutions. I didn't want to say them, I was afraid, I said one and she was the most brilliant I have ever seen her. It was a locution for all there from Jesus. The wall was illuminated. The two rosaries made me feel weak. I didn't want to leave, I wanted to stay and just be there. I am having a special experience and I do not want to leave. This is how I feel now from communion. So close to Them, I love Him so much. It is so hard to leave and go to do your worldly jobs!
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